Current Location: Lying on Couch in Office
Issue on Ground: Fear - Vulnerability
Current Solution: .....
Alright lemme just say it..I've been feeling extremely vulnerable since my last post!! I read it soon after I posted it and realised how exposed I. Was in it. So I've been feelin weird since yesterday.
A lot of people think I'm Strong for being able to come on the blog and talk about myself, and the things I have to deal with, little do they know how I feel after I do that. Sometimes, if I could have my way, I'd yank every single one of those posts in which I reveal myself down, and erase the memories of everyone who may have seen them.
I shiver in fear sometimes when I feel like my entire life is out there for everyone to judge and assess, whether they understand what I'm talking about or not. At those times though, I feel God's prescence like never before and He assures me that even if I'm naked before the entire world, He'll cover me and make sure I wouldn't get hurt in any way.
He has done the same for me this morning..after I woke up feeling all alone and vulnerable. He has re-assured me of His commitment to love me in spite of me and now I rest in the comfort of knowing that.
Sometimes I wish I was a much better person who is able to rise above fear, need for attention and all my other vices, but I realise that the greatest injustice I can do to myself is berate myself for being at the stage in the journey that I am.
Yes, that's what my life is...a Journey. I've come a very looonngg way and I choose to instead celebrate that.
So today, that is the theme I embrace 'CELEBRATION'!!! Thank You, Father..Your encouragement and patience in making me see who I am as You see me, rather than what my limited vision sees, is what empowers me each new day, to be ME.
Thank You and Lord, you and I know that I would need more encouragement from You today...
6 years ago